So thankful.

So thankful for my little girl!!  I haven't been keeping up with this blog as much as I had hoped.  I am going to try and get better.  It is so important to me to document the milestones for Rosie to see someday.  This is her new friend(also matches her outfit) 

3 months old!

Thought all the people who keep asking why there isn't anything new on the blog might want to see a picture of the birthday girl :)  Enjoy!

Danny Sling

Dr.  Hoekstra is hoping this contraption will help Rosie's reflux.  I am hoping it will get her home.  She has started the caffiene and the anti reflux medicine and seems to be doing better.  Her Daddy would love to get to see her more than once a week too.  He works so hard for us and we love him and miss him.  I think Rosie likes the sling, she is giving it a thumbs up:-) 



Rosie and Dad.



Rosie had her EEG today and head ultrasound.  The EEG came back normal, thank goodness.  The head ultrasound showed a small hemorrhage in the germinal matrix but Dr. Hoekstra says it's nothing to worry about.  So, now it is just a matter of seeing if Rosie will grow out of the spells.  If not, she will go on caffeine to stimulate her respiratory system.  All we can do is wait.  After all, everything's Rosie...

A happy girl after her bath.

Rosie's rough day.

Well today was a hard day for Rosie and in turn a hard day for me.  I have never been so emotionally affected by anything in my life as I am when it comes to her.  She was bottling this morning with our beloved nurse Kathy when she decided to burp her.  Our little Rosie stopped breathing and they had to breathe for her to make her start breathing on her own again.  Since she will be 37 weeks tomorrow they ran a battery of tests on her to see why this is still happening, including an EEG on monday to see if she had a seizure.  We now know that she most likely does not have any infection that would be causing the problem.  I love my Rosie and I just want her to be ok.  I am praying that one day all of this will be behind us and I know God will see us through.  See how all the excitement wiped her out...

Our little valentine

This year we have a new little one to fill our hearts.

So much love.

This last month has been a time of awakening for me.  I now understand all the feelings my Mom has been trying to explain to me over the years because....now I am a Mom.  There truly is no greater love.  It has been the hardest thing to watch my baby lay in the hospital day after day, and miss her night after night.  Feeling sadder than I have ever felt each time I walk away from her bedside to leave her there while I go home once again without her.

Today is her one month birthday and she had a rough day.  A cluster of heart rate drops that include her changing colors.  I don't know if it is hard on her, but is sure is on me.  Every morning I walk in and see her little face and everything is ok again.  See what I mean?

I have my sister to thank for setting this blog up for me.  I am no where near as talented or tenured as she is but I will make my best effort.  Hope you all enjoy! 

Happy 1 Month Birthday Rosie!

Holding Mommy's hand when she was less than 24 hours old.